Introduction

Hello everyone!

My name is Beaglesrock! And I'm from Malaysia. If you are a video gamer who mostly plays steam games like Team Fortress 2 especially you might have seen that name before. Yup, that was me. Once in a while, i get misunderstood for hacking(lol).. but that was simply because i use my earphones to estimate the nearby opposing teams' positions from the sound they make and also after having played the game casually for about 9 years it is no wonder at all that i would at least be better than how i was at the beginning. But this post is not about bragging or lamenting!

I am planning to create something mostly about entertainment preferably in English. Kind of like being a youtuber but i will try to be as original and true to my heart as possible. Video gaming will be included, reviews of whatever stuff which i find it worth the time and fun and many other things I have yet to find out. Starting this 'project' should give me a better perspective. I have absolutely no idea if I have what it takes but in my whole life so far from my time schooling, NOTHING from it has inspired me. To me it's like some kind of fairy tale, can only be happy when young and then when you become an adult the happy times are over. Schooling only made me fear my future more and more over the times.

Along the line, from the time i was able to "save" my memories(lol). My parents love to pamper me with joyful things. They wanted me to be the happiest child in the world. But it was common knowledge that joyful things are like excess stuffs you only get to have when you have excess money. Out of all the things they have given me video games, movies, comics and cartoons were the things that captivated me the most. I didn't just like sit on my throne and simply indulge in them. I also wanted to know more about them. I bought magazines about video games, i took my time admiring the arts, rewinding repeatedly until i understood how and why they did it. Schooling felt like an annoying chore to me but it couldn't be helped that the school people needed to know our ambitions. I was not motivated about the subject so my parents took over and decided i should be a doctor because it was common knowledge that a doctor has high pay. So they also get to decide which school i go to next. I didn't care where they send me as long as i get to do my favorite things.

As I approached the age of 18, all my friends gradually grew more and more distant from me. Not from hate but because our interests started to become more different. I guess that's what people called growing up or at least THAT time.When we hang out, our topic choices for our conversations grew more limited. Now I am only left with very few human friends(lol we'll get to that some time) but they are very good people. Despite not having entirely the same interests, they still check on me once in a while even though i did not do so first this whole time. I am just not good at socializing(it's complicated). My time in college(international) was the worst chapter in my life. My parents picked that college because it was prestigious. It was a whole new world. But it was also like serving 2 years of jail sentence to me. Unlike my friends who started out pre-uni with their old classmates, i started out alone. It's only prestigious on the outside, inside it's just like any school good and bad stuffs.

Well nothing in the world can stop the flow of time(maybe not yet), my 2 years in there are done and what have i learned? I have wasted my time and parents' money and i clearly have no interest to become a doctor. I knew i said i didn't care but i never thought my life could become this bad! My parents can never know what's best for me. No parents can on their own other than the manners, life lessons etc. There was no way I could move up to uni with the way I am unless I actually brainwash myself to a guy who actually wants to become a doctor. Luckily my parents are capable of helping me out of that nasty situation by working under my dad. It was good experience but i always get sleepy doing all the office jobs. To me it's not fun but a necessity. Nobody but my dad would hire me. Life has been depressing and I feel like I have to wear a mask every workday. Every time i wear the mask it becomes heavier.

Some time later i found Pewdiepie's youtube channel. Funny thing is his voice was kind of like my inner voice and i subscribed to him straight away. That time he only made money by selling T-shirts with his cartoonic avatars on it. I wasn't really impressed but i guess it was creative of him. No idea how much money he made by doing that. Later on, he made an explosive breakthrough. The world started to notice him and the others who also do the same things. To be honest i didn't think he would actually go that far though deep inside i have been rooting for him from the start hoping that he can actually prove me wrong. Prove the people who gave me my perspective wrong. And so he did!

I don't plan to become another Pewdiepie or just another youtuber but he has taught me that it is possible to make a living by doing what you love. There are two types of people i have learned: One who does a job because of necessity and the other who does a job because it is his passion. And i intend to be the second one. I do not know how i am going to achieve that goal but i believe when a person is determined as long as it is done smartly, he or she will get the results s/he deserve big or small. I don't think I am special. I am just a man who has done a lot of mistakes in his life and I must do something about it. I have been lucky to have supportive people around me but i cannot rely on them forever. Nobody can truly save my world but myself. My journey BEGINS!

If you have actually read from start to finish, i must have captivated you huh! My apologies for my bad English(bad grammar and limited vocabulary) and making you read this long post of mine. I was worried that people would just tl;dr this but that's life isn't it? Also sorry to say i am quite paranoid too. If I have truly captivated you, YOU have to pass this TEST(CLICK HERE) then i shall trust you. No cheating because i will know!
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Wow you're back already?! How was the test? Not many have come this far. My beagles made it. They told me that only those with good hearts can pass it(whatever that means lol). Well onto the next topic! If you would like to support me or see how things will go for me, easy just stay tuned to this blog. Your support and audience is greatly appreciated and my journey now BEGINS! Really..



See you all next time :)